Through out time, I have always believed that strength is achieved thru hard work and time. But I am slowing believing that strength is only as easy to get as you make it out to be. The mind has always fascinated me, how so many people think differently and how they get their strength to go on in the toughest times. Some people are stubborn and believe only in their ways, and think everyone should follow their ways, there are those who sympathize but don't really want to say what they really feel, they are only there for the moment, and then there are your true friends who will always back you up and make sure you don't go down a path in which you will be destructive.
I have been thinking lately that the strength that I had 5 years ago is not in me anymore, my dreams are gone, and I need to find them. But how? I keep asking myself this questions, Months fly by and yet I am stuck doing what I don't want to do. My passion for the arts is what I want to do. Doing this is going to require time, Patience, money and well luck. usually luck I don't have.
I am happy in general, and things are not necessarily bad for me, I just want to be happy doing what I am working for. I would also love to start my bar, and do my dream there, I am sure that with the way Hamilton is expanding that I could get something started here and not do too bad.
Well In the midst of my life I find myself lost someday, this week more then others, and I have to find myself again and I am not sure how I do that. if anyone has any idea's please let me know....
-Beck-
